...OF THE ESTEEMED Eadwulf Greive, FIRST OF THEIR NAME, HAILING FROM THE REALM OF The Dwendalian Empire (Critical Role), RESIDING, AT PRESENT, IN THE Naval District. Unwed.
[If Caleb would have said that out loud, Wulf might have laughed coldly. Because Caleb had broken free...and also broken back in. Things can get in and out of that place. Bren could resurface. Eadwulf knows he won't be able to resist. He can still taste Bren on his lips. He can still feel the warmth of that hand on the back of his neck. He knows. He knows he still loves Bren. And he also know he can never tell Caleb. He has to let the man move on and be happy with whatever new thing he might become for this man. At least one of them doesn't need to be tied to what was. It can't be him. He's still with Astrid, after all. Proof that he can't let go of the bonds that tangled them all together.]
Of course. You won't let the witch have his fill of me. If I lose anymore, I'm not certain I'll be able to come back. But I know you. I know you will do whatever you have to. This time though, it's not on you. I will seek my punishment elsewhere. You've been hurt enough by me.
[ No one was perfect, neither of all was Eadwulf and he also could see signs of such deep inward trauma, it was in the cracks-- he'd had to deal with his cracks and he did not know or understand the things that Astrid and Eadwulf had done to survive, he could not imagine anything beyond his own survival. He also was certain that this wasn't something that him and Eadwulf could talk about, at least not without a goodly amount of whiskey between them and something approaching a stable foundation. It hurt but he felt helpless ]
I understand your need for punishment, just as I understand why I cannot be that one. [ He could not punish Eadwulf for doing something that needed to be done.
Caleb also knew that he wanted to forge something new with Eadwulf, but perhaps that would come in time. Eadwulf's pride would not at this moment allow himself to accept anything good, but maybe a drink over some Apple Brandy could help forge those new connections. ]
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Date: 2023-05-26 05:08 pm (UTC)Of course. You won't let the witch have his fill of me. If I lose anymore, I'm not certain I'll be able to come back. But I know you. I know you will do whatever you have to. This time though, it's not on you. I will seek my punishment elsewhere. You've been hurt enough by me.
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Date: 2023-05-26 05:51 pm (UTC)I understand your need for punishment, just as I understand why I cannot be that one. [ He could not punish Eadwulf for doing something that needed to be done.
Caleb also knew that he wanted to forge something new with Eadwulf, but perhaps that would come in time. Eadwulf's pride would not at this moment allow himself to accept anything good, but maybe a drink over some Apple Brandy could help forge those new connections. ]
The Matron keep you safe, Wulf.